There's a point in everyone's life where they feel failed & let down... by family, or by friends, co-workers, bosses... God... Then, may come the feeling of loneliness, abandonment, bitterness & utter confusion &/or disappointment -- which in turns causes "the wall" of protection to become your personality & identity. If you're one of those people who have encountered such confusion you will relate well to my posts. There aren't very many people willing to go through rock bottom with you. After so many let downs it feels hopeless & helpless to try to reach out for that help - for you aren't sure you could handle one more disappointment. You isolate to diminish the chances of being hurt, scared, violated... but your lonely, screaming on the inside, & in need of love.
No "one" could ever love the way any man or woman... child... can love - for they are limited by what little love they could be shown by others... I hit rock bottom just in time to realize just how important knowing that is... The bitterness I had drawn between God, Jesus, & the Holy Spirit blinded me so much that I lost the understanding of His perfect love - one that cannot be recreated until we push for the Father's wisdom & love, & until we accept the grace & mercy of the Son - Jesus... until we heed to the Holy Spirits guidance & be filled with that joy & presence...
For my self - I can't really say I'm to that point in my own journey, but I want to! Oh, dear Lord i SO desire to... I'll claim that... For if I can trust & let my self be loved by the One who is love - then putting my trust in people & loving the unlovable will not be as disappointing if they fail me. Each & every one of us is able to experience that non-failing love! Not every one of us will accept it though. For my own life, & I pray for my families & close friends lives, even strangers & those I will meet -- I want to experience this perfect love, so we may know how to correctly love without inflicting hurt or pain...
